My classes today were a blur. I couldn't focus because my mind was in summer mode already. All I wanted was for someone to tell me exactly how it is, not make me think about it.
That is one of the reasons my postings of late have been spurratic (sp?). <-- And Lazy.
In any case, I just had the thought that this would be the perfect time to spew out propaganda to college students, because they're too mentally exerted to think about it and will accept just about anything.
Kairos is very interesting at times....
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Senioritis
Not for seniors only. I have one more day of actual class this semester and then it is summer time. i have been postponing all sorts of adventures for the last 9 months in order to handle my school workload among many other things. Dang out has been a long time since I had a vacation.i even skipped a lot of family get togethers so I could focus on school, I'll have to work on that because I don't want to be that way with family, but basically I have waited for this day for a long time, and now it is right ced the corner. Next week I just have to turn in assignments and move out of logan. Wow. I think i am ready for real life...or whatever it is.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Mothers
This post should belong on mother's day, but I probably will not remember it then.
I have always had this crazy ability to impress every mother I have ever met, except one. I don't know if it is because on the surface I look like more than I am, and under the surface I really am nothing, or if I try extra hard around certain people and not others. Call it magic if you would like.
The only mother who is not dazzled by me is my own mother. For some reason she is not impressed by anything I have ever done. Sometimes I feel like all she sees is my failures: I didn't keep at my violin even though I was so good, I don't like the same things she does. I'm not done with college yet, I haven't fully moved out of the house, I don't finish everything I start. I don't know anything about how to work. I can't get a job and there must be something wrong with me. I don't know how to even clean the kitchen right when I get done with it. --No, with my mom nothing I do is good enough.
I spent a few hours of my spare time (during class and on the weekend when I was bored) pouring my heart and ideas into a 20month plan of my life. It includes the three main pillars of my life and leaves room for the fourth (graduation, film making, and my dating&relationships book/blog.) [& marriage]. Yesterday though, when I had time to talk to my mother about it, her response was: You can't handle that much of a work load. You will hate life. I don't know anyone who has been able to do that many classes all at once. --It was complete trash. My own mother doesn't believe in me. She never has.
And although my mother never has believed in me and trusted my abilities or encouraged me to do the things that I want to do--in spite of all that--I have been able to overcome. I went through a lot of crazy stuff because of my lack of maternal support and a father who isn't empathetic and isn't around all that often, but I have overcome those weights pulling me down, not giving me a fair chance. Now I am on the verge of breaking out of this situation, in 20 months I imagine that I will be in a new world structured around all of my own decisions. It will be a place I created, not one that other people created for me, and whatever I don't like about it, it will be my own fault and not theirs. That's really just what I want.
Back to mothers: my mother's never going to change. She's too old, she has her own problems to deal with. I can't go around expecting her to one day accept and encourage my decisions, but that doesn't mean I can't be happy. I love my mother, I understand her completely even though she's the most complex person I have ever met. I chose a few years ago not to let her bring me down, and that's why she hasn't hindered me. Meanwhile, other peoples' parents see me as a model child, I guess you could say I get all the love I need from them and I tend to latch on to those people who give me that support because I enjoy what I never got. I know though that one day I will get exactly what I want, and it drives me even harder to accomplish those things, almost as though I'm getting a future dose of support--taking it early, from people I don't hardly know.
I have always had this crazy ability to impress every mother I have ever met, except one. I don't know if it is because on the surface I look like more than I am, and under the surface I really am nothing, or if I try extra hard around certain people and not others. Call it magic if you would like.
The only mother who is not dazzled by me is my own mother. For some reason she is not impressed by anything I have ever done. Sometimes I feel like all she sees is my failures: I didn't keep at my violin even though I was so good, I don't like the same things she does. I'm not done with college yet, I haven't fully moved out of the house, I don't finish everything I start. I don't know anything about how to work. I can't get a job and there must be something wrong with me. I don't know how to even clean the kitchen right when I get done with it. --No, with my mom nothing I do is good enough.
I spent a few hours of my spare time (during class and on the weekend when I was bored) pouring my heart and ideas into a 20month plan of my life. It includes the three main pillars of my life and leaves room for the fourth (graduation, film making, and my dating&relationships book/blog.) [& marriage]. Yesterday though, when I had time to talk to my mother about it, her response was: You can't handle that much of a work load. You will hate life. I don't know anyone who has been able to do that many classes all at once. --It was complete trash. My own mother doesn't believe in me. She never has.
And although my mother never has believed in me and trusted my abilities or encouraged me to do the things that I want to do--in spite of all that--I have been able to overcome. I went through a lot of crazy stuff because of my lack of maternal support and a father who isn't empathetic and isn't around all that often, but I have overcome those weights pulling me down, not giving me a fair chance. Now I am on the verge of breaking out of this situation, in 20 months I imagine that I will be in a new world structured around all of my own decisions. It will be a place I created, not one that other people created for me, and whatever I don't like about it, it will be my own fault and not theirs. That's really just what I want.
Back to mothers: my mother's never going to change. She's too old, she has her own problems to deal with. I can't go around expecting her to one day accept and encourage my decisions, but that doesn't mean I can't be happy. I love my mother, I understand her completely even though she's the most complex person I have ever met. I chose a few years ago not to let her bring me down, and that's why she hasn't hindered me. Meanwhile, other peoples' parents see me as a model child, I guess you could say I get all the love I need from them and I tend to latch on to those people who give me that support because I enjoy what I never got. I know though that one day I will get exactly what I want, and it drives me even harder to accomplish those things, almost as though I'm getting a future dose of support--taking it early, from people I don't hardly know.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Film Making The Planners Art
Film Making is possibly the most articulate planning any individual can engage in (if they are doing it right, that is). Every little detail has to be planned out in advance. Very minor things, when they are missing, can become MAJOR things. Take for instance making sure that your actor has the same red sweater on in all of their shots.
Basically, film making is the process of making blueprints for sets, securing items, preparing actors and directors physically, mentally, and especially emotionally. Making sure that everything is in order, people are coordinated, etc. etc.
I'm going to ramble forever without really making a solid point, but basically when you make films, you aren't just planning one thing, you are planning many intricate things that have to come together properly in order for it all to work out.
Basically, film making is the process of making blueprints for sets, securing items, preparing actors and directors physically, mentally, and especially emotionally. Making sure that everything is in order, people are coordinated, etc. etc.
I'm going to ramble forever without really making a solid point, but basically when you make films, you aren't just planning one thing, you are planning many intricate things that have to come together properly in order for it all to work out.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Free Food, Not Free Doctors
The reason it has been a few days since my last post is because I've been simmering on an idea. And just like simmering some tasty meal makes the flavors blend together, softens its contents, and makes it overall better, so is my idea.
I feel like people have more of a right and an obligation to provide others with free, healthy food than they do to provide them with cheap medication, easy access to clinics, medical supplies, etc. etc. Medicine is man's attempt to extend man's life from premature death, and increase longevity of the human race. Food on the other hand, is nature/providence/God's attempt to keep us living daily.
Whoever gave us the notion that poor people were obligated to some sort of medical attention SERIOUSLY got the whole picture wrong. Medicine is not a necessary part of our survival: if you eat right, exercise, and don't take unnecessary risks, you'll live a meaningful and happy life. Yes, there are exceptions to this: take for instance if you have a birth defect that causes you to die around the age of 30 in a lot of pain--no matter how healthy you are, you still have a pretty inevitable chance of dying around age 30. BUT, personally, I would rather live in the comfort of having a full stomach than I would in the comfort that my pain might be lessened when I do die at age 30.
Everyone is going to die eventually; part of life, ironically, is death. But being forced to eat top ramen, mac and cheese, and spaghettios shouldn't have to be. The dollar amount between the two is so drastic that it's silly that some people are forced to eat garbage. A nice fancy dinner doesn't usually cost more than $15per person, yet (depending on your plan) you can pay over $1,000 per month on health care.
I did the math for you:
$1,000/mo = $33 per day, or 2 thanksgiving dinners PER DAY.
Our U.S. National GNP devotes such a significant portion of its budget to health care welfare systems when really it has no ethical basis behind it. More people would be benefited more (utilitarianism) by nearly free food than they would by cheap medical care.
I'm not saying get rid of medical insurance, I'm saying completely privatize it. Employers can still use their own health insurance programs. Individuals can still pay for it themselves. Poor people would just have to suffer and die because they can't afford it, or because their employer doesn't provide it. It's that simple. But at least those poor people could make the attempt to pay for their insurance and not have to worry about getting a healthy meal if they can't manage.
Instead of paying doctors we should be paying chefs who can provide healthy food instead of junk fast food that poor people are prone to waste their food stamps on. McDonalds and junk processed foods tend to be purchased most due to their cheap and easy qualities, but bet me that if the government pumped more money into making food that is cheap, easy and healthy we really would get cheap easy and healthy food. Our doctors might gripe and moan about losing their highest paying customer (the average taxed american) but hey, what makes their profession better than the food industry?
I guess my main point is that we don't NEED medicine to live but the average citizen when he or she pays her taxes spends a portion of that on prolonging the life of the elderly and the poor.
And yet we need FOOD to live and we aren't don't really anything to prolong a starving person's life or helping people lose american fat. (contrary to popular belief, the #1 cause of obesity is cheap food.--the cheapest food is the most unhealthy, that's why it's cheap. It's not that unhealthy food is loved more by people and so they are prone to eating it, it's not even that there is a culture in america behind eating unhealthy food. It is that poor people can't afford good quality food and so they eat unhealthy food that is cheap and the culture of poverty dictates the culture of American fat. How many millionaires are overweight? A few, but not as many as live in poverty.)
I feel like people have more of a right and an obligation to provide others with free, healthy food than they do to provide them with cheap medication, easy access to clinics, medical supplies, etc. etc. Medicine is man's attempt to extend man's life from premature death, and increase longevity of the human race. Food on the other hand, is nature/providence/God's attempt to keep us living daily.
Whoever gave us the notion that poor people were obligated to some sort of medical attention SERIOUSLY got the whole picture wrong. Medicine is not a necessary part of our survival: if you eat right, exercise, and don't take unnecessary risks, you'll live a meaningful and happy life. Yes, there are exceptions to this: take for instance if you have a birth defect that causes you to die around the age of 30 in a lot of pain--no matter how healthy you are, you still have a pretty inevitable chance of dying around age 30. BUT, personally, I would rather live in the comfort of having a full stomach than I would in the comfort that my pain might be lessened when I do die at age 30.
Everyone is going to die eventually; part of life, ironically, is death. But being forced to eat top ramen, mac and cheese, and spaghettios shouldn't have to be. The dollar amount between the two is so drastic that it's silly that some people are forced to eat garbage. A nice fancy dinner doesn't usually cost more than $15per person, yet (depending on your plan) you can pay over $1,000 per month on health care.
I did the math for you:
$1,000/mo = $33 per day, or 2 thanksgiving dinners PER DAY.
Our U.S. National GNP devotes such a significant portion of its budget to health care welfare systems when really it has no ethical basis behind it. More people would be benefited more (utilitarianism) by nearly free food than they would by cheap medical care.
I'm not saying get rid of medical insurance, I'm saying completely privatize it. Employers can still use their own health insurance programs. Individuals can still pay for it themselves. Poor people would just have to suffer and die because they can't afford it, or because their employer doesn't provide it. It's that simple. But at least those poor people could make the attempt to pay for their insurance and not have to worry about getting a healthy meal if they can't manage.
Instead of paying doctors we should be paying chefs who can provide healthy food instead of junk fast food that poor people are prone to waste their food stamps on. McDonalds and junk processed foods tend to be purchased most due to their cheap and easy qualities, but bet me that if the government pumped more money into making food that is cheap, easy and healthy we really would get cheap easy and healthy food. Our doctors might gripe and moan about losing their highest paying customer (the average taxed american) but hey, what makes their profession better than the food industry?
I guess my main point is that we don't NEED medicine to live but the average citizen when he or she pays her taxes spends a portion of that on prolonging the life of the elderly and the poor.
And yet we need FOOD to live and we aren't don't really anything to prolong a starving person's life or helping people lose american fat. (contrary to popular belief, the #1 cause of obesity is cheap food.--the cheapest food is the most unhealthy, that's why it's cheap. It's not that unhealthy food is loved more by people and so they are prone to eating it, it's not even that there is a culture in america behind eating unhealthy food. It is that poor people can't afford good quality food and so they eat unhealthy food that is cheap and the culture of poverty dictates the culture of American fat. How many millionaires are overweight? A few, but not as many as live in poverty.)
Monday, April 18, 2011
Paper length requirements
I've found that whenever I have a paper length requirement I either cut my argument short because I met the requirement and felt like I didn't need to write any more and thereby don't go into enough depth, or I go too much in depth and B.S. my way through the paper just to reach the paper constraints.
It is fairly counter productive to tell me a specific length of argument (5-15 pages is a good estimate, so is 50-80 because they are so broad) because I tend to shoot to get the assignment done rather than focus on it.
I know, I know, it's lazy, but I'm sure that's what most people are doing. Personally, I'm just trying to get my schooling done so I can get a several thousand dollar piece of paper to hang on my wall. I do all my learning in class, the assignments and tests are just not all that important to me as long as I pass and can get my diploma.
It is fairly counter productive to tell me a specific length of argument (5-15 pages is a good estimate, so is 50-80 because they are so broad) because I tend to shoot to get the assignment done rather than focus on it.
I know, I know, it's lazy, but I'm sure that's what most people are doing. Personally, I'm just trying to get my schooling done so I can get a several thousand dollar piece of paper to hang on my wall. I do all my learning in class, the assignments and tests are just not all that important to me as long as I pass and can get my diploma.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
KC's Poetry: Vertical Climb
KC's Poetry: Vertical Climb: "I’m not a nihilist; but everything I do brings be back to 0,0. In the grand scheme of things, Every positive I make in one way Could be made..."
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