Ghost of Facebook's Past

I thought I'd get on facebook again and see what I'm missing out--I don't really know what I use it for anymore but I have an account and I have my RDC coaching articles set to autopost on that account.

Sadly, I only have a handful of friends on there.

I deleted my account because I was sick of the influence it was having on people's lives (mine especially). I was sick of people posting fake-ass comments like "Oh, I am so happy and blessed to have the family I do!" and "Just won $1k in Wendover! Woot!" It seemed superfluous. I was sick of the mean and rude comments as well--the whole internet has turned to shit by allowing people to cower behind a computer screen and scream out insults and badmouth anyone who does anything to stand out. Childish.

I suppose at the time, when I deleted my facebook, I was expecting to one day do great things and that I didn't want to be held down by the people of my past and that I could make new friends as easily as keep the old ones. And... that has been true. I've done an equal job of making friends as I have of keeping them. --ok, that might be a stretch, because I know how to make new friends and slip up really close to people, get inside of their inner sphere and be included in their inner circle. But I can't seem to stay there very long.

So.
I suppose I write this "article" reflecting on a lot of regret.
I haven't done anything "spectacular" as I thought I would when I abandoned all--except that I have learned how to be completely at peace with this world and how to set goals and all the skills needed to reach those goals.--Yet, somewhere along the line I lost motivation. I lost ambitions for all of the dreams I originally had, and now it seems my only dreams are to live in peace and continue on with life the way it is.

But the regret I'm feeling today is that I have gained and lost so many people. I have forgotten people's names. I have forgotten all of the wrongs people did to me and the rights they did too.--As the song says"all this bad blood here, won't you let it dry?"--well, I let it dry. I've changed and I'm the only one who knows I've changed--and frankly, I know I'm the only one who cares as well.

I don't know if this is just a part of growing up, but I definitely have been working towards a few key ideas about life, and one of them is this simple truth:

Life is all about the relationships you have with people; and relationships are worth more than anything else in this world.

Knowledge and intelligence is useless in my opinion.
Physical prowess and good looks--also useless.
Money--most useless.
Skill and creativity--pointless.
But when you know how to make friends and keep friends and feel connected to people, it surpasses the human condition.

I would trade everything I know, I would trade anything I'm good at and all of my money to have 10 completely solid relationships in life. Just 10 people. I'd cut a deal with the devil or with god to spend the rest of my life with 10 individuals who I'm close with, talk to regularly, and hang with at least once a month.




I decided I'd set up my facebook page again and hope I can get in touch with all of those old friends I haven't seen in a while.