Not Everything

Knowledge isn't everything, but sleep might be.

I think I just failed a quiz in one of my classes. I'm starting to see the effects of lack of sleep and high stress. I don't remember things when the time comes to recall them. My brain freezes up.

I may be capable of reading well and comprehending. I may even be able to discuss what I read with some sense of insight. But when it comes time for testing, I botch all my efforts. I'm spread very thin, all of my efforts have been half-a'd. Instead of doing quality work on anything I do 50% work on everything. I'm really worried about how my grades are going to turn out this semester, and it's somewhat silly because it isn't the complexity that is killing me, it's the workload. This by far has been my worst workload. I thought my other workloads were worse, but I literally have no time to sit. I shouldn't even be writing this, I should be studying and working on the next thing.
Instead of sleeping I relieve stress. Instead of revising and improving, I relieve stress. I just don't have time for anything fun and because I don't do anything fun it makes the stress worse.
What I wouldn't kill for some hard labor!
My body is weakening daily, I looked in the mirror and I'm no longer toned in any way. It's like all my muscles disappeared. It's definitely not good. And I keep telling myself that I just need to survive a little bit longer and that over the next rise will be relief. I don't have relief though. There are no reinforcements, just more things piling up.

I'm at the cutting point. I need to decide what I can cut from my schedule. I'm accidentally cutting people from it, but I don't want to--I don't mean to end friendships, I mean to return to them when things clear up for me, though I'm not sure when that will be.
I definitely don't want to cut any classes--not since I've come this far.
I've already cut the film making--I WILL return to it in December when the semester is over, but no sooner.
I may be cutting my dating services. A shame too since I have so much to write still.
I may be postponing my new blog--which is a bummer, but necessary.
And I've already cut my business propositions.--no time.
I'm cutting social media--no more twitter, no more facebook, and I'm limiting my blogging.
I may be cutting phonecalls from people.

I'm really stressed and I must simply say that even if you learn many things, if you don't sleep, it isn't going to help you any to cram your brain with information...you'll forget it later. I know, I did anyway.
And if you don't relax any, you'll constantly live in fear that you never get a break. I know, I do. I feel antsy when i sit down to take a rest.


I'm getting sloppier and sloppier.
I don't even know how this article releates to this blog, but I'm going to post it anyway.