Babies

Babies has become a curse word in my lexicon.
Every time I hear it I still think of how innocent and cute they are, but I also remember how annoying and ugly their parents are. Babies are great, but everything that comes with it isn't. Young girls--12, 14 year olds--are inclined to think that they HAVE to have babies. If they're smart enough to keep their legs crossed until they're in their mid twenties, their thoughts shift to: "I gotta get married and start making babies!" Then, if they can keep their finger unbanded, they get to just the right age/maturity level and they think: "I hate babies, I don't want anything to do with babies, how could I raise a child in this cruel world?" And they forget about having babies or they  rebel the thought of it.

We can't have a society full of babies. The younger people are when they get married (Let's take West Virginia for example), the younger in maturity and therefore the more stupid the population gets. They don't have sufficient 'old age' in their midst to help them make decisions when they're young, and they go off track, off the deep end. --when I was little, I was raised by my grandmother more than my mother. She was wise. She taught me the basis of everything else I know simply because she taught me it first. I'm not sure what would have happened if my mother tried to teach me--she didn't have the experience--life experience--to teach me what grandmother did.
Now let's take Utah for example. I've lived in both places so I'm aware of the similarities and differences. In Utah, some girls get married at 18 (the "legal" age). These girls are usually the ones whose parents encourage marriage at such a young age (I.e. the poor, or those whose parents did it too, etc etc. ). So they get married and they think they've gotta have a baby. They pop out a baby at 19 20...21...22...23...24...25. and their grandparents have to raise them because they're too busy trying to pay the bills. If they're in college, and they have a baby, same thing only worse. Sure, you're getting an education, sure you're making the child's future "better". But in actually, you're just too immature to think about that child's future. By the time that child is your age, do you want them to go through the same things you have, or do you want them to go through an improved life?
I personally want improvement. I want my kids to have MORE opportunities than I have had--and I've had a lot, so it's gonna be hard. But I will have to work hard to do it--as I expect my kids to.

My point is, don't let babies be your motivation.
My motivation isn't to improve their lives, so much as it is to establish myself in the world. I run on the old adage they teach on airplanes: before you put your neighbors gas mask on, put your own on. Once I am on my way to accomplishing my own goals--once I've "established" myself in life...then, I'll take an interest in bringing someone else in the world.
The thing is, I'm still fighting to get over the things my parents didn't do for me.
My parents didn't get a college education. Sure, they made money, my dad gained connections and became quite successful. But neither of them had MAJOR ambitions. My dad's biggest dream was (I haven't asked him, so I'm just assuming things) to own a ranch, horses, cows, and be able to ride horses every day after work. He's got that. He seems pretty happy with it. But if you step outside of good old Slaterville, UT--where he is known and "big" (it's a very small town), that's the extent of his political sphere.
Me, I want to make an impact on mankind. But to do that--to look like anything significant in life, I need to get a piece of paper that says some big university will vouch for me. I need to create something of worth that the masses value and will vouch for me because of it. I need to accomplish some significant feat.

Right now, I can't really do any of those things. I have a hard enough time holding and getting a job because of school. It would be easier if my father or mother had gotten an education, made some close intellectual ties--had done anything. I'm very grateful for what they have done, but I was born a generation too early and am forced to do the things that the next generation will appreciate. I'm starting to see that before I can venture out of my charitable life (I've tried, don't think I haven't--I've been fairly vicarious for a person my age [whatever age you look at, it's been a little more vicarious than average--I'd say B or B+] ) Before I can  REALLY help mankind, before I can help my family--or start a family for that matter. Before I can make friends with people and present my skills before the world and my country. Before I can REALLY do those things, instead of half do them, as I am now...I will need to overcome my first real obstacle in life: surpass my parents in the basic fields.
Then, once I have surpassed my parents (with my education, with the kind of job I get, or etc. ) Once I have made the bare minimum of what they have done, then I can begin my campaign.
And by campaign I mean: get a family, find close friends, start accomplishing things.

--I know that sounds "futurist" (thinking too much for the future) but it isn't. The end is in sight. I'm still a young man and I have a plan. and part of that plan is to not regret my past decisions. If I get old and am not married, haven't done anything spectacular, don't have any close friends, that will not be okay, but the window of opportunity isn't even open right now. I need to get closer to it and open a few locks before the opportunity arises. There is no point in just jumping out the window and breaking glass!

Babies. Such a curse word. Don't speak to me about babies unless you want to be judged as either looking for sex, looking to get married--too early, or you're just completely dumb as rocks. Babies aren't a good thing unless you're over 25 and established in life.